So it is, for everyone else, a sunny, beautiful day. Blue skies, warm weather, and puffy little clouds. But to me, its hell. I have just lost my drive and will to go on.
When i go outside i feel so exposed. all the elements. the brightness, the noise, the people, the movement. Its just too much for me. I just want to stay in bed. Getting up and going outside is just too much to handle right now. It takes too much energy and I don’t have enough willpower.
So its about 2pm on my day off and I’m inside. Bored, tired, annoyed, and desperate for a change in my life.
Can anyone else relate to this?
I have so much drive, so much passion, and yet Im so weak. Im so tired and dead inside. I know there is a better world waiting for me somewhere, but where is it? How do I find it?
When will things get better?