So, Salvador Dali was famously quoted as saying, “I Don’t do drugs I am Drugs”
Ladies and gentlemen this is the story of my life.
The common man will say, at ANY AND EVERY POINT POSSIBLE WHENEVER THEY SEE ANYTHING ARTISTIC OR CREATIVE, that person must have been so high when they made that.
Think to yourself. Really think. Remember The Matrix, Across The Universe, The Cell, Inception, Naked Lunch, and so on and so on. How many times did you hear someone at school, or a person you work with go, “Oh my God that movie was trippy”, or “That person must have been so high when he wrote that”.
Dear world, some of us out there don’t need drugs or alcohol. Our minds are at times, more beautiful, and at others, more terrifying than you can ever imagine.
I need to point out here that I was never big on astrology and never knew about the personality types until my therapist had me do the test. So I’m not the fru-fru mystical witch type.
But once I started learning about it all… it all just fit me so much that I couldn’t just deny it.
Do any of you out there feel this way? Feel like even though everyone tries to tell you its not real, there is just something WAY TOO TRUE about it all. Everything just hits way too close to home?
The example above is a perfect one.
When I close my eyes I see everything so clearly. My thoughts play out like movies. With vivid color, clarity, sounds, and speed.
I don’t need drugs to imagine what the devil looks like, or to conceive of a complex story with interwinding plots and twists.
Trust me, my mind has shown me things so much worse than your worst LSD trip, and a life so much more colorful and euphoric than your best.
And for the commoners, I know this makes you mad and you probably don’t believe this… I’m sure YOU CANT BELIEVE THIS. You can’t allow yourself to believe that some of us have a mind so much bigger and so much fuller than yours. But its the truth.
For me, I want so much more in life. I want to inspire people, I want to entertain people, and I want to love people. But at the same time, I hate people so much. Im filled with so much resentment and anger toward them. Mount that on top of my desire for adventure and travel and finding out that life is SO MUCH MORE than just drinking and fucking.
Remember that book “Brain on Fire”? I think that girl just felt what its like to be me for a month.
But I digress. Its a blessing, and its a curse. But mostly its a blessing. I would never want to feel the way the common man does. I would never want to be content with being a spoke in the wheel.
Did you ever read, “The Road Less Taken” by Robert Frost? And that famous quote at the end,
“Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.”
And in college all the pretentious cunts were always like, “Oh, you know, most people believe that he meant the road less taken was the better path, but really all he means is that its different, not better”.
Well, Im gonna call em’ out. If you’ve ever taken the road less traveled you’d know, that even though it brings pain. A lot of pain. It also offers rewards so much greater than anyone can know who hasn’t taken that path and you can’t go back once you’ve felt the presence of a life beyond the mundane. You can’t ever close the door again.
So, even though there may be pain, lets keep walking. Lets keep traveling down our path, diverged from the rest.
~The Dark Horse