So, I have good news, and some odd and confusing news.
So i guess lately Ive been thinking about the “next step” in my life. Where Im going after Australia, and Im starting to think about how great it would be to fall in love and make friends and have adventures. And I’m thinking less and less and less about ‘how will i survive this day with my anxiety’.
Am I moving BEYOND anxiety? Am I actually becoming the person I used to be and not even knowing it?
…. no….no that isn’t right…. that must be what is different…. I’m NOT THE OLD ME.
I don’t let things bother me like I used to. i don’t respond to situations the same way. I’m learning to be better. Im learning to better myself. Im learning to not hate myself for being so different. Im learning to love myself. Im learning how stand in my own shoes and set fire to anyone who doesn’t like that.
Like Robert De Niro from Stardust Im gonna rock that freak flag! WHY THE FUCK NOT RIGHT?
So What, maybe I had no friends in high school, but I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
Maybe, Ive never been to a concert, but I have swam with wild manatees, dolphins, and sharks in Florida (For real…It was actually a little dangerous)
And maybe I’ve never been in love, but I have lived in a foreign country.
And you know what? I’ve met a lot of people along the way. The good, the bad, and the ugly. And dammit, Im still here. So fuck you people if you think I’m weird, I LOVE IT
So put on your best Michele Pfeiffer “Imma fuck shit up” face, and well….. fuck shit up (in the good way)