So the past few weeks I was visiting home in Ohio and about 3 hours ago I arrived back here in Melbourne and I hate to say it, Im actually really sad. I actually really enjoyed the comfort and safety of home. Being able to be back in my own room, in the neighborhood I grew up in, having trees and parks everywhere. Everything seemed more real.
Like here in Melbourne Ive been battling the panic and anxiety so badly. And I thought I was making such great progress because I was getting through the day without having massive breakdowns…..
But when I was back home all the panic and anxiety practically vanished completely. I couldn’t believe it. And with my mind not focused on panic and anxiety all the time, it started opening up again. Opening to things I hadn’t felt for a long time. Things I wanted before the big breakdown, like adventure, and love, and friends, and a job that will change this world, and…. I don’t know, I just had this spirit I haven’t had in a long time.
But here’s the problem…. I still hate the people in my hometown. They are still trash and small minded. So I know that my hometown has no long-term value in my life
So where to go from here?
Anyone else having some big decisions to make in their lives right now?
The Dark Horse
~ This was totally not proofread