So up until recently I have not fully appreciated the concept of family. Yes, going away to college makes you miss home, and living in Australia last year made me miss home even more but my family has just recently started to…. “mature” i guess?
So my parents only had me and my brother. And he just moved out for the first time.
On top of that my dad is a firefighter so he works 24 hours on, and 48 hours off.
So on nights when he works the only people in the house are me and my mom…. which is….sad and lonely to be honest.
Im not used to this kind of thing! The household has always been the 4 of us, and when Im off living in different cities and different counties obviously I’m taking the cheap road so I’m used to 8 people sharing an apartment basically living like some 1900’s New York City tenement.
The days when my brother does come home even for like a few hours I notice it so much more and appreciate it so much more than I ever did when he was blaring music in his room keeping me up at night.
And furthermore, Im moving again! I leave for New Zealand in 1 month! That means my mom will be alone on nights when my dad works and they will officially be EMPTY NESTERS.
Now, take my mom: Grew up in a family with 7 children. Then she had me and my brother with my dad, so she has been living in a household of all boys. HOW WILL THIS WOMAN HANDLE BEING IN A HOUSE ALONE?
I don’t know if any of you watch the show Big Brother, but that is what this feels like. Toward the end of the show when they go from like 16 people down to 3, and they’re just kind of aimlessly wandering around a giant house looking at empty beds and empty bedrooms. (ok I’m being dramatic) BUT STILL YOU GET THE POINT!
So what am I learning?
Well, although I know I need to make a life for myself – pave my own path, find my own way, make my own friends – I still do care about my family. And its kind of sad that my family will never be the four of us in a house ever again.
the last form of youth in my life is now over.
But perhaps its also good…im glad my brother is paving his own way in life, and I’m excited for my move to New Zealand, and hopefully my mom and dad will find some time to go do all the things they wanted to before we were born.
travel, take up hobbies, go out to lunch, and so forth.
Maybe although childhood is lost, independence can be found?
~ The dark horse