Ugh…. The Christmas music is gone. The family has all parted ways… The presents have been opened… and now here we are. Stuck with the post-christmas lows.
Its always weird for me. Everyone always acts so busy at the holidays. Like, “Oh I just couldn’t possibly stay any longer, I just have so much to do I have to go right now!”
Does anyone else feel like thats how everyone is? Even at the family Christmas there are people who come, eat the food, and then are like, “Ok everyone we have to go, bye!”. And I’m like… Where exactly is everyone going all the time?
If you’re going to come into town Christmas eve night and leave at 8am the day after Christmas what exactly are you even coming home for? Like, seriously people… if you’re lives are so full-on that actually breaking away from your job for JUST 1 DAY is now a chore, don’t come home!
But as I grow older thats how life has become. Christmas is this whirlwind now consisting of 1 day. Where I hear nothing but family complaining about how tired the holidays make them, how busy they are, how quickly they have to rush out right after Christmas…. and then before you know it, its December 26. Everyone is gone. The mad dash to go somewhere else is in full-swing.
We spend 2 months putting up lights, listening to Christmas carols, buying presents, baking cookies….. all for one day where EVERYONE ON EARTH just complains about how tired these two months have made them. How they’re just too stressed right now… and how they have to leave immediately.
Well human population: You’re negativity, lack of enthusiasm, and commitment to your jobs which must be working you 60 or 70 hours a week with how much you complain about them, has left me now tired, depressed, and empathetic.
Your Christmas has ruined mine. I hope you’re happy.
And now you’re all gone. Back to your jobs which you hate so much. Back to paying off your mortgages, your kids, your cars, and the presents you couldn’t afford. You’re back to living your lives you complain about so much. And Why?
Now don’t get me wrong. Im not some unemployed welfare muncher. I work as well. And no, I don’t like my job. But you know what people, I’m doing sometime about it. Im going back to school. Ive never invested in things that would keep me tied down to consumerist culture like buying a house, buying the newest car, or the crappy gadgets that don’t do anything (talkin’ to you fitbit and apple watch people). Because without having any of that hanging over my head I’m free to switch up my life. Im free to change things. Im not tied down. I don’t have anything looming over my head. I am not happy with my life, and therefore I am changing it. You people are not happy with your lives, and yet you just sit in your filth. You tie yourself down. You get stuck, trapped, and captured.
Then this one time of year comes around meant for family, fun, and friendship. It could be so beautiful. The lights, the trees, the time spent together….but no. Instead you’re so frazzled that the holidays have become a pathetic spectacle. Christmas is now just one more day in your life that has clearly become so boring, so routine, and mundane that you just could’t give a fuck anymore.
And thats sad. And it makes me sad. And what makes it even worse is that you’re all convinced thats just how life is. Working a job that doesn’t really make you happy is something you believe everyone just does. Buying too many presents for people who don’t actually need them is just part of the season. Getting fatter and fatter every year is just part of getting older…and so on and so on. If your 15 yr old self saw you right now, what would they think?
Apparently to most of you, adulthood is the end of your life. All you have is the memories of your youth now.
I don’t want that as my life. And I’m sorry that so many of you have let that become you.
Sorry for the horribly negative post, just something Ive been noticing.
~ The Dark Horse