There is a surprisingly large number of muscular duck drawings online…
Im not sure why and I’m not going to ask. I feel it’s just safer to live in ignorance.
Hopefully it caught your attention, but the big news is that I’m actually feeling really good about myself right now! HOW FUCKING AWESOME IS THAT?
My first semester at Harvard just finished and I got straight A’s. I wrote a big thesis paper on the Heaven’s Gate group. And to write the paper I interviewed multiple scholars who studied the group and some members who left the group before the mass suicide. It was amazing! I felt like an investigative reporter! (Finals were the reason why I wasn’t blogging….it got intense). But i absolutely loved every moment of it!
On top of that, I got involved in one of the groups on campus and have been helping with putting together events and stuff, which is awesome. I mean, if you were to ask me how satisfied I was with my life a year ago…the answer would have been dismal. Very very dismal. But after a lot of hard work and some should searching I feel like i’m coming more into myself. I’m growing to be as strong and courageous as I always believed I could be. Like some massive spark has been lit.
But let me hammer this point in….It takes work. LOTS AND LOTS OF WORK.
For those of us out there with depression, anxiety, panic, and any other type of mental illness, TRYING IS FUCKING HARD.
Like, seriously fucking almost impossible.
So, then what do we do? Well for me, I just envision the life I want to live. I want to change the world. I want life to be amazing. And how I see it, there are two options… give up and kill myself or try my fucking hardest to rock the shit out of this world! And I think it’s worth it to try.
We only have one life. We have to try. And you know what, maybe we can end up changing the world!
~ The Dark Horse