So, this is super annoying, but my life is quickly getting better. Like, so quickly it’s actually making me mad. I’m mad that I sat in a shell for so long. That I feared life. That I doubted myself. That I didn’t take risks and go out a limb simply because I believed others when they said I was worth nothing.
So for anyone who is reading this blog for the first time, I just started taking classes at Harvard last month. Im brand new to Boston. And yet in this one month I have started classes, Ive started writing a novel, and I just got offered a job to write the social media for a company here…. WHAT THE FUCK PEOPLE?
Why Didn’t I decide to start writing a novel sooner? Ive been blogging for like 3 years. It isn’t like I haven’t had the desire to write. In fact I’ve had story ideas just sitting in my mind for years. What have I been doing?
Is it possible that things can go well? That maybe the world is colorful?
That maybe the bad guys don’t win at the end?
I’m still just so fucking annoyed that I sat and believed for so long that nothing good could ever happen to me. I believed with ALL OF MY HEART that I wasn’t worth anything. That I failed because I deserved to fail. That I was just better off dead. That was the only reason I could think of as to why people kept telling me I was worth nothing.
But you know what, maybe there are other reasons?
~ Maybe because I decided to be myself and not follow the norm, the road wasn’t paved with signs telling me where to go… well the road wasn’t even paved. Thats just part of being different.
~ Maybe people felt jealous or threatened that I wanted more for my life than a boring 9-5 where I had to drink my weekends away just to cope.
~ Maybe all those failures kept showing me what paths not to go down. Maybe they were learning experiences? Maybe thats just life process of anyone who follows the beat of their own drum?
So what can I say to you people who are reading this?
Well for starters. Don’t give up. NEVER EVER GIVE UP.
Don’t listen to the people who put you down. This world is full of hateful people. They have their issues and reasons as to why they’re such assholes, and none of them should matter to you. let them go rot in their own filth. Don’t become one of them.
Remember that you’re talented and smart and can do anything. Any of us who go trough the day with depression, anxiety, or any other mental problems are so strong. We have to deal with the shit the common man can’t even comprehend. So remember, if you have the strength to get out of bed, you have the strength to change the world.
This world can be bright and colorful. Just like the picture above. We just need to remember to rock shit out, and never take no for an answer.
Life is short, don’t waste anymore of it.
~ The Dark Horse