So, I’m having a bad day. Im just consumed with doubt right now. What if Im not a good writer? What if I have no talent. Why am I even trying? Will anyone want to read anything I have to say? Will anything I say inspire people? Will anything ever make things better?
And so goes the loop of thoughts in my head. The endless banter between myself and…well, myself.
Do any of you out there ever feel like this? Like maybe everyone from your past is right? That you’re talentless and worth nothing? That you just suck and should stop trying?
If you’re like me and are depressed, these thoughts can weasel their way in and then it becomes insanely hard to get rid of them. Its like when you realize there’s an ant on the counter and you squash it. Then there are two more. Then four. Then you look down and realize there is far too many for you to crush with your shoe.
Well I don’t have all the answers yet, but one thing I do know is to sit on it for a day. I know that when I have bad days there is really nothing that can be done. Its basically just over. All my thoughts will be negative and cloudy and a mess. But I do know that tomorrow, or maybe in two, or three days, things will be different. I’ll have a little more positivity. And then, thats when I can actually figure out what to do and where to go.
So if anyone out there is like me right now, I’d say lets give ourselves a pass today. Go order some pad thai, pop in a really cheesy and happy movie and just focus on being positive. That is step one. Ok, ready? GO!
No this wasn’t proofread sorry!
~ The Dark Horse