So, my life has kind of been turned upside lately. Ive decided Im going to make friends and meet people…. even if they don’t want to. Ive been basically putting myself into situations and telling people when and where were meeting….. why you ask? Well because I’m fucking depressed and lonely and don’t give a fuck about others anymore. Im no longer caring if they want to hang. Im just making it happen.
But you know whats happening? ….People are actually hanging out with me. Fuckin weird right?
OK LET ME TELL YOU WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY. BECAUSE…. OH MY GOD I HAD A MOVIE MOMENT AND IT WAS AMAZING
So 3 days ago we had a guy come into our store looking for a prepay phone plan because he just arrived in New Zealand. He talked to one of my coworkers for a good 45 minutes to an hour before he left. At the end of the day he needed to unlock his phone and then come back to buy the sim.
S0 yesterday the guy comes back because he got his phone unlocked…. I think I should describe him now? I think thats a smart move yah? So he’s 25, from England, really cute, British accent, in shape, good body, and he’s straight.
Now the store I work at is extremely slow and boring so normally my day is like this…
So he sits down and starts talking to my coworker forever again because he clearly is lonely and in a foreign country and doesn’t know anyone. And since were slow we have nothing better to do than to talk to him.
So i sat there and was like… Wait.. I’m lonely and in a foreign country and don’t know anyone… and so is this really cute straight boy…… so fuck it, I’m gonna force myself into the conversation and make a friend.
So were talking and I swear we talk for like 2 hours. We were literally talking until it was time for us to close the shop. So we sent him home and started doing the monotonous closing duties and my life went back to being boring as fuck and I kinda felt crushed that I wasn’t going to be making friends with a cute straight boy.
But then something awesome happened. As I was walking to the bus stop from work I see him sitting on a bench eating some sushi. Naturally I was like…. well I’m forcing people to hang out now…so… lets go make hime hang out!
I sit down next to him and and strike up a chat. We then walk into the city together which is a good 30 minute walk. Once we were in the city we decided to get a coffee and keep chatting, then I said lets make dinner at my place, so we buy groceries and walk another 30 minutes to my place and keep chatting.
We cook, we eat, I shower, he showers, then we put on a movie. So he’s laying on the couch with his feet sprawled out diagonally, and then there’s me laying on the other end of the couch with my feet up on the backrest of the couch (already one of the closest human interactions I’ve ever had with a heterosexual male)
So we watch the movie and then before we know it, its 2am. He has no car so I can’t send him home. So I’m like, “oh hey I know its late…but you’re more than welcome to stay here”…. and I swear to you, without even blinking he’s like, “Ah yeah man sure, thats your room right?” And he walks into my room, gets in my bed and takes his shirt off so he is in nothing but gym shorts.
I am now instantly kind of getting a boner and in my head I’m like HOLY FUCK THERE IS A SHIRTLESS STRAIGHT GUY IN MY BED!
Yes people…. thats literally what I walked into after brushing my teeth. So I take my shirt off so I’m also in nothing but sweat shorts.
I get into bed next to him and we chat for about 15 minutes and then he falls asleep…. (typical fucking straight guys being able to fall asleep within minutes of laying down…. dumb assholes)
But then he repositions himself and his leg moves into mine and his shoulder touches mine. I can feel his warmth.
I am now rocking the biggest boner known to man
So I sit there for probably a good hour like a little school girl just freaking out inside that a boy is touching me….. even if it is in a very PG way…ITS STILL SOMETHING PEOPLE!
I decide to just go to bed and enjoy not being alone for the night.
I wake up and my leg is literally on top of his leg and his face is on my shoulder. I decide to not wake him…..I was quite content sitting there for another hour just knowing a cute boy was laying on my shoulder.
So today hung out even more and he asked me to take a week off from work so we can take a road trip.
a road trip
Do you know this will be the first road trip I have ever taken in my life?
Thats right. Me, a straight boy, a car, and a tent…… OH MY GOD. Its the most insanely homoerotic wet dream I could possibly ever imagine!
But you know what, even more important than that…. it feels really good to have someone thinking about you. For someone to want to travel with you. To want to share an experience with you.
….maybe life isn’t so shit guys
~The Dark Horse
(no this was not proof read! Im too busy being a childish little schoolgirl ok! leave me alone! )