So, when I first started therapy a few months ago my therapist did this huge survey of me for something called the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator. This is basically where you answer a bunch of questions and you get your four letters which define your personality type. If you have never taken one of these tests do it, its actually really informative!
So, anyway, I got the INFJ. Which stands for introversion, intuition, feeling, judging. INFJ is actually the rarest type, only about 1% of the population falls under this type. Now back a few months ago when she first handed me the print out of this I didn’t care too much. I was kind of like.. oh cool, some papers about nothing.. NOW JUST TELL ME HOW THE FUCK TO STOP THE ANXIETY ATTACKS!
But recently Ive been doing kind of bad again, and since I’ve been feeling down I needed some inspiration and did a little research on the INFJ type.. and DO YOU KNOW HOW AWESOME WE ARE?
So a little breakdown on the INFJ world:
“As an INFJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in primarily via intuition. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.
INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.
INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations. They get “feelings” about things and intuitively understand them.This is the sort of thing that other types may scorn and scoff at, and the INFJ themself does not really understand their intuition at a level which can be verbalized. Consequently, most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.
But the INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are concerned for people’s feelings, and try to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger. They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress.”
So thats just a bit about being an INFJ. I have the link to that page below if you want to read more.
So yes. We are the ultimate outcast. We see things nobody else does. We feel things nobody else can. Dude we even feel things to EXTREMES that nobody else can. We’re idealistic and feel like we have higher purposes. And ya know what… in most cases, it’s because we do have higher purposes. If you make a list ranking the most pure souls to ever have lived, and the most evil people to ever walk the Earth, almost all of them on both sides of the spectrum would be INFJ types. We’re so strong and yet so fragile.
With good nurturing we can change the world (legit, even Jesus Christ is categorized as an INFJ). Or an INFJ who has been scorned can generate their larger-than-life powers to destroy the world (Hitler was also an INFJ). In fact here’s a good list of the best and worst of the INFJ spectrum.
From Noam Chomsky and Ghandi, all the way down to Osama Bin Laden. We are able to be the greatest or the absolute worst people who have ever walked this Earth.
In fact, it is such a known thing that INFJ’s can swing either way that there is a even a term called “The Dark Side”. For real, go Google INFJ Dark Side. We are strong and ferocious…. and that last you want to do take a ferociously good soul and make it a ferociously bad soul…
If we INFJ types don’t flow through our life, and live it as we need to. Bad things will happen. To most people it seems that we INFJ types float through the air. Obsessed with a better world, true happiness, and fantasizing and questioning EVERYTHING. Literally, EVERYTHING. Do you know every night before I go to sleep I lay in bed and make “movies” in my head? Its true. I lay there and close my eyes and throw myself into a situation. Fighting for the galaxy aboard a spaceship, searching for bigfoot in the Cascades, or even meeting the guy of my dreams in some HORRIBLY cheesy way. But they can also be bad. I mean I’ve had horrible nightmares. Nightmares I couldn’t even describe on this blog. I even fall into scary daydreams sometimes. And its all so vivid. I can feel the bass of the music, see all the colors, genuinely feel the feelings I have in the “movie”/dream. Its all so much better when my eyes are closed.. its what lets me know that there is more out there. something bigger and better.
* The Dark Horse would like to say that hopefully these situations totally could happen 😉
But you can’t pull us down from that cloud we live on. it literally kills us. An INFJ who is not happy and isn’t living the life they’re meant to is bound to hurt themselves. There are tons of problems INFJ’s are susceptible to:
And that is where I am right now… not living the life I am meant to. Ive let the negativity and mean spirits of others pull me down. Im unhappy everyday of my life because I don’t find pleasure in the commoner’s world. I need more. Which is why I think I’ve got such bad depression and anxiety. If any of you other there feel the same, look into the INFJ personality type.
Seriously.. if there is one type of person to change the world… it’s us, and in general we are good people. Very, very good people actually! We are even known as The Protectors.
I also learned that Pocahontas was an INFJ…. hell ya!
Sorry for the super long post.. and yea…. totally not proofread, sowwy bitches!
~The Dark Horse
Hey guys! I know you’re like me and love learning about what it means to be INFJ, so here are some other posts I’ve made:
INFJ Struggles With The Modern World
Being INFJ During The Trump Era
I Don’t Do Drugs, I Am Drugs. Being INFJ and Sagittarius
Travel and INFJ (Or, Just Fucking Do It…Its Good For You!)
INFJ and the Feeling of a Calling