Ok everyone let’s all take breath and be real here: For those of us who are already prone to depression and/or anxiety, the current world is too much. From Donald Trump, to North Korea, to Russia. Even things that are supposed to be helpful like #MeToo is incredibly stressful and exhausting.
The world right now kind of feels like Singapore in the Independence Day sequel.
And I don’t know about you guys, but I’m totally torn, and it’s killing my energy. Part of me says, “I need to know this shit! This is important. This is the work we live in. I can’t bury my head in the sand”
But then the other part of me is like, “You’re one person and you’re prone to depression and panic attacks.. TAKE A NIGHT OFF FROM THE WORLD AND DO SOMETHING THAT MAKES YOU SMILE YOU DUMBASS!
And you know, that second part of me is right. Yes, this is the world we live in. And yes, a lot of people are saying a whole lot of mean and stupid shit right now. But stressing myself out by thinking about it every night and asking how can I fix this isn’t going to fix the it. In fact, all it will do is make my life worse. So, what to do?
I think a balance is good. Balance is always good right? So say most religions and philosophies least.
So, I’m working on a few articles that I want to try and pitch to HuffPost or something, or at least put on Medium (I’m like 99% sure they’ll all be rejected). But that way I can at least try to have my voice out there. But I also need time where I simply turn off.
This week I’ve been taking time before bed. For 30 minutes I read Eat, Pray, Love (don’t judge, it’s actually a great book), and then the other 30 minutes I watch an old show called Strangers With Candy. It’s insanely hilarious and offensive, but in this way where you always know it’s a joke. It’s one of those beautiful examples of something that can shock you but also make you feel really good inside. I find myself laughing out loud when I watch it, and damn that’s life saving.
If any of you are interested, it’s about a 46 yr old high school drop out, ex-hooker user, boozer, and loser – who goes back to high school to pick up right where she left…
So yeah, I guess that’s it for now. I’m learning to not stress myself out. Rome wasn’t built in a day, nor was it built by one person. We can all only do so much, and allowing the current global crisis kill us with stress won’t help anything.
So let’s do what we can. Write to your congressman, write editorials about your views, volunteer to help the needy, and for god sakes get and out vote in November and again in 2020!!!! In the meantime, do what you can, and remember to relax. Life is hard, so let’s not make it any harder on ourselves. We’re a lot more useful to the world if we’re not paralyzed and exhausted from depression and anxiety.
~ The Dark Horse